Voyeurism

Well I was just visiting a friends site and they said that I haven't posted anything recent so here goes.

I was wondering if anyone has been in an orgy. Or if they have ever had an audience while having sex. Or if they were the one watching someone else have sex.

I guess these type of questions ended up in my head because I have been party to a couple of them. I have never been in an orgy. Although I have thought about it a lot.

I was with this guy we will call Brandon. He and I met on a blind date, but somehow it ended up working out for a while at least. We were together for about a year off and on. We even lived together. Brandon did a lot of drugs, but at the time I wasn't really looking for the signs. Plus he was a heavy drinker. Anyway we were over at a friends house having small party and of course we wanted to have sex. Unfortunately there wasn't a convienient place for us to go. So we went outside in the backyard on the lawn. Brandon told me that his friends wanted to watch and I said o.k. I don't really know why I let them. I was sort of an exhibitionist at the time. I wasn't particularly proud of my body, but I was an extremely sexual person and for some fucked up reason I used it to get attention.

I also used to have a bad habit of taking my clothes off in public. I used to change in parking lots, or in my car in the daylight. I wouldn't really cover up either. I just liked the idea of getting caught. But when I did get caught I didn't like it. I was lucky that I never went to jail for indecent exposure. But I guess if you are a decent looking woman and young they tend to give you a break. There was also a couple of times, that I would say that I was tired at a friends house during the summer heat and want to take a nap on the sofa and I would take off my shirt and then fake like I was sleeping to see what they would say about me. I was a total nutcase back then.

I did watch a couple of my friends have sex. There was this one couple, she was an old roommate and her boyfriend. They wanted to go to the mountains to take pictures and just for fun. However I didn't know that the fun was going to entail us taking our clothes off till we got there. I ended up taking nude photos of my friends and they wanted to have sex there on the little bridge over the creek. It felt awkward though. I felt I was intruding, because it was so sweet and loving. It wasn't just sex. If only I had picked up on the signals, I could have had a threesome right then and there. They told me that later that day when we got home. I felt like an idiot.

But all in all I do like having these memories. I did some crazy stuff and I was lucky nothing ever really bad happened. But I don't really regret the things I have done. It has definitely made life interesting.

See you in the moonlight.