Answered Questions

Mr. Vanilla asked me these questions and I am just now getting to answer them.
You said "The funny thing is when I say all of these things out loud about me, I feel like a slut."

Regardless of someone or yourself labeling you "a slut", are you okay with your past? If you could repeat it, would you be as free with your body, maybe more so?

For the most part I am o.k. with my past. I wish I would have take more precautions back then. I wasn't terribly careful. I also put myself in some dangerous situations that I was lucky didn't end up badly. I don't think I would have been more free with my body. There is really only one person that I never made love to that I am sorry for. But it was his decision as well. It was my first love. I am recently in contact with him again. The only reason we never had sex, is because he was totally in love with me and wanted it to be very special. He didn't want it to be ina car or a cheap hotel. I didn't really care then and I don't now. I just wish we could have had sex at leat once. Not that it made any difference in how much I love him.

I don't know if you read your old comments, but I'd be very interested in reading a post about the time you were celebate for three years? Why did you do it, and what was it like? As you are the woman, it obviously was a choice for you. Did you abstain from all sex, just intercourse, oral sex, masterbation, etc?


My celibacy. Well it didn't start out to be a mission or anything. I moved around some and didn't know a lot of people. Plus the people I was interested in weren't interested in me. I am very picky. I like to be with very hot and sexy people. Men and women. But the thing is I didn't feel so great about myself at the time. I was trying to get over an ex and working all the time to pay the rent. The months just slipped into years. And of course I had to use masturbation to get me through. And during that time I bought a massager, that quickly became my vibrator. And of course there were a couple of people that liked me, but at the time, I wasn't getting the message. Plus I change my hair a lot, and for a while it was pretty short, but I didn't exactly dress like a dyke or a straight woman. So I thought at the time that gay women thought I was straight and straight men thought I was a lesbian.

So when I was finally sick of being single, I ended up finding my ex. He and I didn't hook up that quickly, but it opened the door for my self esteem and I found people left and right. A few months later I met my husband and the rest is history.

See you in the moonlight.